Well this sucks

It's been over 2 years since I last wrote in here and things are still rough. One of the things that I wrote in one of the old posts was that I hoped to never get to 300 pounds. Well, that did end up happening. I think I got as high as 312 or 314. I'm happy to say that I'm not in the 300's anymore, but things are still tough. I'm somewhere in the 280's right now. The last time I had posted in here I was 264.4 and I already felt horrible about my weight at that point. It's scary to imagine where my weight could be in 2 more years if I don't take control. But I am going to talk about some positive stuff in my next post so stay tuned.

264.4

I'm thinking about employing a strict 3 meals a day, no snack policy.

267

Fatter. Or maybe it was the running shoes I was wearing. As much as it makes me hate myself to see an increase in weight, it also makes me feel good to know that I'm more aware of my fluctuations in weight, rather than letting things going out of control without even noticing. I also think it's a good idea to see what kind of things trigger me to eat.

265

Fuck! I gained weight. I hope I never hit 300 lbs.

256

It's hard to know if I've actually lost any weight or I'm just weighing myself at a different part of the day with less clothes. One of my goals at some point is to eat one salad every day.

260

I've chosen a simpler way to keep track of my weight. I'm going to title all of my posts with my weight from now on. Because of the strange way I tend to do things, it might take me a bit before I can commit to eating a salad every day. By no means is it impossible or even that difficult for me to do this. It's more of an OCD thing where if I'm going to do it, I feel like I need to do it every day, or I won't do it at all, and I may not be ready to start with that yet.

Entry #2

I stepped on the scale today and my weight was 260 pounds. This is way out of what my weight range is supposed to be. I'm 6 feet tall, and ccording to healthstatus.com, the healthy weight for my height is 165 pounds. This means that I am 95 pounds overweight. I wonder if I would feel better physically and emotionally if I was a healthy weight.